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Happy Mother’s Day, Mom.

To my mother whom I miss so much.

You been gone a long time  now. When you died,  it was a very painful experience for me.     Years   have gone by, the hurt I felt then has  only intensified. I now think of you more and more. I think I should have been a better daughter. I wasn’t too bad a daughter, but I could have been a better one. I wish I’d taken you out more for dinner, so you’d have day off from the drudgery of life. I wish  I’d taken long walks with you. I wish I’d asked about your childhood and what it was like. I wish I’d ask you how you and dad met. I have so many questions for you about your life. Why didn’t I ask when you were alive? It is too bad that daughters and sons don’t realize how precious their parents are. No one can ever fill the empty space in my heart that you’ve left. There’ll always be an empty  space in my heart  reserved just for you and no one else will enter it. No one.

Mom, if there’s  such a  thing as  reincarnation, I hope I come back as your daughter. I will treat you like the great person you were. You will never want for anything.  I will treat you like a queen, Mom.

I know you’re in heaven, if there’s such a thing.  And if there isn’t,  maybe you’re in a better place.  I just know you were too good  a person to be anywhere else.

Mom. I want you to know there aren’t too many good people left on earth. You were one of the special ones.

Mom, I’ll always miss you. There isn’t a day I don’t miss you. I think of you all the time.

Mom, maybe some day, we’ll  meet again. I hope so.

Love you always, mom.

Happy Mother’s Day wherever you are.

Gang Stalking – Music soothes the savage beast.

If tomorrow you wake up and discover that gang stalking is no longer happening to you, what would your life be like?

I know what I’d do.

I’d get out my paint brushes and start painting. I’d try to sell the paintings so I can put a down payment on a cottage.  A cottage near the beach. I’d walk on the beach every day.  The cottage would be surrounded by trees. No one would live near me. I don’t want  any people near my property. I’d definitely have cameras and sensors all over my property.  I’d want to know if someone enters my property.

I’d have music playing all the time. Music has been my savior. Without music, I don’t think I’d  made it  this long –  Music soothes the savage beast (William Congreve).

And then I’d paint, paint, paint all day. This time not for profit, but to paint in colors what I can’t let go of  –  intrusion of government into my life. I have to let go all the bad stuff in my body.

And after I’ve gotten the big, bad government out of my body, I’d like to travel, maybe find love again, feel again, and not hate my fellowmen anymore.

I want to wash all the dirt I’ve accumulated from all my years of torture. I want to be totally free again. To fly again. To breathe fresh air again. To walk free again.

And I’d stop writing my blog, but  will never trust the government again. Never!

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Gang Stalking – An invitation to hope.

English: Lion representing the Leo sign in ast...

English: Lion representing the Leo sign in astrology. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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Horoscope 3 (Photo credit: Themeplus)


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Hope (Photo credit: mrsdkrebs)

I don’t usually read my horoscope, but I was turning the page and noticed the horoscope for Leo. This is from a horoscope by Brezsny:

“LEO (July 23 – Aug. 22) – When did you first fall from grace? Do you remember? It has happened to most of us. We spend time being privileged or cared about or respected, and, suddenly, we no longer are. We lose our innocence. Love disappears. Our status as a favorite comes to an end. That’s the bad news, Leo. The good news is that I think the months ahead may be time for you to climb back up to one of those high states of grace that you fell from once upon a time. The omens suggest that even now you’re making yourself ready to rise back up – and sooner than you think, there will be an invitation to do so.”

Wouldn’t it be great if all the nonsense stopped for all of us and this horoscope came true?  Who knows?  Maybe finally something will happen to free  us all from the grip of what’s occurring to us?  Of course, I don’t believe in horoscopes, but just reading it, makes me feel better. It gives me hope.

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Gang stalking – Street Theater, and lots of it!

English: Suitcase made with cloth material.

English: Suitcase made with cloth material. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Sorry, I haven’t responded to anyone’s comments. It took me 5 days to move. I moved by suitcase. I put some things in my suitcase, took them to my new apartment and went back and forth for five days doing this. I didn’t have enough things to hire someone to move me, so I used my suitcase. I thought I had nothing to move, but once I started to move things, things added up. I can tell you, after 5 days of doing this, I’m pooped.

Anyway, if you want to know how bad it is out there for us targets, try renting a new apartment or moving. What an experience! It was worse than the last time I moved.

I experienced a lot of car, suitcase and pail theater. Everywhere I went perps surrounded me. I could go nowhere without a group of them showing up. They showed up imitating me lugging a suitcase, carrying pails, and white cars showing up at every light. They were everywhere like roaches looking for food and I was the food. The busses were full of idiots carrying suitcases. And the car theater. White cars would show up and surround me. And if it wasn’t white, it was red. And the car imitators would always show up when I got to the street corner. And those who lugged suitcases would imitate me having trouble dragging the heavy suitcase around. They would actually stop in the middle of the sidewalk and do tricks with their suitcases. They looked so stupid!

Since I’ve moved into my new apartment, someone has broken into it every day. They’ve left my door open two times. One day I came home and found all my lights on. Another day, all my cabinet doors were open. At nighttime, my apartment is an icebox. They turn blowers on from other apartments and make the place an icebox. And the binding that goes around the front door that keeps out the cold been removed. There was a big hole under my kitchen sink, which I had them repair. As I walk around the carpeted apartment, I can feel wires under the carpet. This lets them know where I am at any moment. It’s a bad job they did of hiding the wires. And, of course, the sinks have no stoppers. They never put in stoppers. It’s to encourage roaches and other vermin to enter the apartment. When I left my last apartment, the roaches had the run of the place. I kind of gave up on trying to keep them out. I just them run wild. And, of course, the air conditioner never works. Every time I turn on the heater, it gives out hot air for about a minute and then turns cold. So, nothing’s changed. It’s the same s–t all over again. Only thing is, I no longer have to look at those faces I couldn’t stand to look at. I’m making it a point not to look at any of them. I turn my face every time I see one of them coming toward me. And they’ve began imitating me doing the face turn. Good! I don’t have to look at their stupid faces!

And the people above me, stomp their feet at night and try to hit me with electricity. The first night, they stomped around like crazy. The next night, I got out my little gadget and, boy, did they stop stomping around. Their stomping around let me know where they were and I’d aim for them. I can imagine the man above me getting hit in a certain spot. Did I laugh! They think twice about stomping around now.

There a few good things about this new apartment, but I’m not going to mention them. If I did, they’d make sure that the complex got rid of them.

So, sorry for not responding to your comments sooner. It’s good to be writing my blog again. And thanks for continuing to read my blog and making comments even when I don’t respond. Love you all. Take care of yourselves.

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Gang Stalking – Happy Valentine’s Day “World.”

Author: Bagande

Author: Bagande (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


Love (Photo credit: praram)

Children's Valentine, 1940–1950

Children’s Valentine, 1940–1950 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I was going to write a blog about love, but I’ve had a real bad day today.  And I don’t feel too loving toward anyone, least of all the perps.

Well, I decided I’m not in a mood to write about anything, so I’ll just wish everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day.

If there’s someone in your life you love, let him know how much you do.  It’s hard to find real love in this crazy, nauseating world.

My love to everyone who reads my blog. You keep me going when I don’t feel like existing.

Love and happy Valentine’s Day to the world.

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Gang Stalking – Senate Intelligence Committee stop taking up space on t.v.

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Logo of the United States White House, especially in conjunction with offices like the Chief of Staff and Press Secretary. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Cover of "Targets"

Cover of Targets

John Brennan - Caricature

John Brennan – Caricature (Photo credit: DonkeyHotey)

Ron Wyden - Caricature

Ron Wyden – Caricature (Photo credit: DonkeyHotey)

I couldn’t write my blog yesterday.  My computer was not working, and spent all day fixing it.  The hackers are back to their old games.  Don’t these people have anything to do with their lives?  I sometimes don’t believe what I’m going through.  There must be a way for us to get information out to people. There has to be!

I did notice that “targets” were the topic of conversation.  Not us targets, of course.  The news  was full of reports of drones, and American citizens who were thought to be drone targets of U.S. government overseas.  But at least the term “targets” was out  there.

“Targets” is the term used by the Senate Intelligence Committee hearing held yesterday.  The Committee was questioning John Brennan, White House pick for C.I.A. Chief.  The Committee had questions about the drone program and its targeting of Americans overseas, and how a target is  thought to be guilty, even if  no proof exist that the target  is dangerous.  The target can be killed if  he appears to be of  “imminent” danger to Americans.

In my opinion, the  Senate Intelligence Committee is a joke. They really don’t want to find out what the truth is about Americans overseas becoming drone targets.  All they’re doing is trying to show Americans that they’re doing something to protect our rights. Yeah, they are.   Thanks for the laugh Senate Intelligence Committee.

But it would be nice if something came out of this committee.  Maybe some information would come out about what they’re doing to Americans here in the good old U.S. of A.

But I doubt the Senate Committee will find out anything.  All they are doing is wasting our money and nothing else.  And, of course, all the senators are getting free television time. The senators all love seeing themselves on television looking like they’re doing something.

What a joke the Senate Committee is.

Stop wasting our money, Senate Intelligence Committee. Go back to doing nothing, and stop taking up space on television.

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Thank you, WordPress.com


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English: The logo of the blogging software WordPress. Deutsch: WordPress Logo 中文: WordPress Logo (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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English: ‘FREE HUGS’, Chicago, USA (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Oh, my God, WordPress.com, how could I forget to thank you for the nice New Year‘s statistics?  What other site  does this for its bloggers?  I don’t think too many.  You are the best. Hugs, love, and lots of kisses to all of you  at WordPress.  And a great year to all of you.  Thanks, thanks and thanks.


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Gang Stalking – Thank you, thank you, thank you http://WordPress.com.

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English: The Queen of Hearts, from a 1901 edition of Mother Goose, New York: McClure, Phillips, 1901. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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WordPress, thank you, thank you, thank you for trying to help me out.  You guys are absolutely No. 1.  No blogging site, I’m sure, is as helpful to a blogger.

Bloggers, you want a great blogging site, this is the only site you should consider.  No one censors you, no one tells you what you can write.  Http://WordPress.com accepts all views.  WordPress.com, may you become the biggest blogging site in the future.  You deserve to be No. 1.

Again, million thanks for making my life easier.  My love to all you.  You have my highest admiration.

With my love to all of you,


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Gang Stalking – John Lennon: Imagine all the people living life in peace.

Picture of John Lennon's Strawberry Fields For...

Picture of John Lennon's Strawberry Fields Forever Memorial from July 14, 2007. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Strawberry Fields Memoril to John Lennon in Ce...

Strawberry Fields Memoril to John Lennon in Central Park, New York, NY, USA (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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The terminal building at John Lennon Airport Liverpool Español: Exterior de la terminal del aeropuerto. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

John Lennon and Yoko Ono

John & Yoko Ono

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John Lennon rehearses Give Peace A Chance by Roy Kerwood (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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Statue of John Lennon in public park, Vedado, Havana. December 2006. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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A photograph of the John Lennon Peace Monument that was unveiled on John Lennon's 70th Birthday by Julian and Cynthia Lennon on October 9th 2010 in Chavasse Park, Liverpool, England. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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Recording "Give Peace a Chance". Left to right: Rosemary Leary ( face not visible), Tommy Smothers (with back to camera), John Lennon, Timothy Leary, Yoko Ono, Judy Marcioni and Paul Williams (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

For some reason today, I was thinking of John Lennon.  So I went to Google and looked up information on him. John Lennon was ahead of his time.  He knew the government could not be trusted.  And he said as much in his writings.

Some quotes from John Lennon:

Our society is run by insane people for insane objectives.  I think we’re being run by maniacs for maniacal ends and I think I’m liable to be put away for expressing that.  That’s what’s insane about it.

You don’t need anybody to tell you who you are or what you are.  You are what you are.

You either get tired fighting for peace, or you die.

I don’t believe in killing whatever the reason

And his lyrics to Imagine are so beautiful.

Imagine there’s no heaven

It’s easy if you try

No hell below us

Above us only sky

Imagine all the people living for today.

Imagine there’s no countries

It isn’t hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

living life in peace.

You, you may say

I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only  one

I hope some day you’ll join us

And the world will be as one.

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world.

You, you may say

I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one

I hope some day you’ll join us

And the world will live as one.

I love this song/poem.  It’s too bad we  all can’t live as one and in peace.  Maybe some day? Too bad John Lennon is not alive to speak up for peace.

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Gang Stalking – Oh, it feels so good getting even.

English: a love heart in water

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English: Maayan holds her umbrella (Israel, 2002)

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Port of Oakland water reflection

Port of Oakland water reflection (Photo credit: davidyuweb)

I’m typing my blog early today.  I always tell myself I have to tell my T.I. readers this and that, and then I put off writing my blog late into the day, and I forget everything I want to tell you.  So that’s why today I’m writing early.

To reiterate, There. Are. No. Directed. Energy. Weapons. Or. Satellites. Aimed. At. You.  I can’t say this enough.  I know all these years you’ve heard about Directed Energy Weapons, but its been from T.Is who think that’s what they are.  In the beginning from all I read, I thought that was true, but I never fully believed it.  I decided to really explore what is going on around me, and let go of the idea of directed energy weapons. Well, I’m so glad I did.  I went against the grain, and finally, finally, it has become clear to me that I’m on the right track.

Just this morning, I drove the gang stalkers crazy. All these years, I thought I was getting hit from above. But I’ve discovered in the last few days, that’s not true.  It is coming from above, but I’m being hit from the counter that I sleep next to. The only place that’s even remotely safe for me to sleep .  I discovered that if I put umbrellas against the side of the counter that the pesticide that they’re sending down to me goes right back to them. I don’t get hit. So there’s a gadget underneath the counter.

And with the gang stalkers next door,  I put my electric  fan against the wall near the front door and I could hear the gang stalkers  running around like chickens with their heads cut off.  They were running around trying to protect themselves.  Also, the ones upstairs, same thing.  When I put the umbrellas against the side of the counter, I could hear them running around trying not to get hit.

As I’ve stated before, everything they do to you is near you: in your apartment, outside your apartment and surrounding area. And every day I prove it.

I’ve meant to tell you about sensors, but I keep forgetting.  There are sensors placed all over your apartment. Last week, I discovered some in the doorway.  The top part  of the doorway, in the middle. The sensors are not easy to see. They look like pieces of paper, so it’s hard to find them.  I also found one under my sink.  I found one a long time ago in my temperature gauge, but I think another one been put in. I can hear the sound every time the gang stalkers try to find me. It makes a “click.”  The sensors are under your carpet, in your walls, in your counters, in your refrigerator, under the sink, in the light sockets, in the cabinets, the stove, wherever something can be hidden. That’s how they can always tell where you are.  Sensors are what they use to find you, not directed energy weapons or satellites.  The sensors are the bad guys.  I don’t know how to explain what they look like.  But the closest I can explain to what they look like,  is this way, they look like small pieces of computer instructions with dots. I wish I could explain it better.  I’ll go on the web and try to find something that looks like the sensor chips.  You can find the chips by moving your hand around the area you think the chip might be. Move your hand up and down and see if you see any movement.  That’s a chip.  Use your flashlight.

The gang stalkers living next to me think they’re going to have an easy ride.  They don’t know  they’re going to get hit as much as they hit me. I know they’re getting hit.  I put my ear against the wall and listen to them running around trying to protect themselves.  So they don’t get an easy ride.  I love to hear them running around.  It makes my day.  This week  I’ve fought back a lot, and I’m getting great pleasure in making their life as miserable as they’re trying to make mine.

Oh, I forgot.  You know that pulsating feeling you get, that’s water.  Yes, water.  You have pipes running underneath the ground and the pipes carry water.  The people in government have found a way to re-direct that water to you so that you get  pulsations.  I saw the maintenance man, about a year ago, put a sterno (that’s that tin can you put under your pan to keep your food warm)  into the ground and bury it.  The maintenance man saw me watching him and told the gang stalkers to make sure that it wasn’t removed. I’ve often thought of digging it up, but I wouldn’t get too far.  The gang stalkers would  call the maintenance man and tell him what I’m doing.  So do you get it?  Water and then they direct electricity toward you.  The electricity meets the water, therefore, the pulsating.  I’m no scientist, so that’s the best explanation I can give you.

I hope I’ve helped you somewhat.  All these things I’m telling you, I’ve discovered on my own.  If you want to believe that the government is aiming  Directed Energy Weapons and Satellites at you, it’s your life and you can believe whatever you want. No problem.  It’s a free(?) country. You have  a right to believe what you want.

The two new gang stalkers next to me never leave their apartment.  There was  a notice in their door knob for four days and no one even removed it. They’re just like the previous gang stalkers (I drove them out).  Those two spent all day in bed, and I think these two new ones do the same thing. It must be nice to spend all day in bed making love.

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