Gang Stalking – Let the tears come.

Tylenol (Photo credit: raspberries1)

Breakfast (Photo credit: brixton)

cry (Photo credit: the|G|™)

This morning I woke up feeling feverish and chilly, and felt a lot of stomach pain. And totally exhausted.  I did not feel like getting out of bed, but I forced myself to get up and have breakfast.

After breakfast, I took a Tylenol and walked around trying to feel better.  But I didn’t.  I still felt awful, and decided there’s no way I’m going out today.  So I made my way back to bed.  It was really good to be under my cover.  The warmth made me feel a lot better.  I laid my head down, and the tears came.  I didn’t cry, the tears just came down.  And I let  them come.

I thought of my mother and about how much I miss her.  And I thought how many times did she cry silently, and  I wasn’t aware of  it.  I’m sure my mother cried a lot of silent tears, but I never saw them.

I know why the tears came.  I’ve forced myself to keep going no matter what.  To write my blog, and be.  No time for tears.

With all the stress I’ve been experiencing lately, I didn’t  let my guard down.  It’s go, go and do what has to get done.  There are people all over the world who have worse lives than I do.  At least I have a place to sleep, eat, keep warm, so I shouldn’t feel sorry for my self. I should be grateful for what I have.

But the constant harassment never lets up.  It’s electricity hitting me all the time, being followed every minute, cars honking, people constantly laughing at me with their smirky laughs, at night someone unlocking my door, hacking into my computer, my phone, filling my apartment with terrible smells, clothes disappearing from my closet, people aping everything I do, etc.  It gets very tiring.  I never get a minute to just relax and think.

To just sit and think is a luxury for us targets.  It is a luxury we’re not allowed.

Every minute, it’s make them miserable, drive them crazy, make them want to end their lives, do something that will make them commit a crime so they end up in jail, or in some mental hospital.

There is no time for crying, or we won’t survive.

But our bodies know us better than we know ourselves, and they come to our rescue.  They make us cry and let out all the nasty stuff building up inside of us.  If we don’t let out the tears, we would explode.

So I’m grateful for the tears.

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Gang Stalking – Off Topic – PostaDay 2011 – How do you battle bad science?

Here’s something different for  today.

Watch this 15 minute talk about bad science. And then write a brief review on your blog, or simply write about a topic that comes to mind from listening to his presentation.

http://YouTube/h4MhbkWJzKk.com

I just watched this video, and I tend to agree with everything he said.  We are not aware of all the negative results about prescription drugs.  We’re just told to take a pill, or whatever it is, and we’ll feel better.  The drug companies just want to show the positive results of a drug, so a patient will be more likely to take the drug.  The doctor stated that he tried to get the truth about the drugs he was prescribing, but the drug companies withheld information.

I think taking drugs of any kind is putting our lives in jeopardy, because we don’t know the actual results of how our bodies will react.  Maybe if  I take a pill the doctor recommends, I might  discover the drug is causing my hair to  fall  out from the drug, or  maybe the drug  is causing my heart to race abnormally. And nothing  about the two reactions, I just stated,  are  in the sheet given to you by the pharmacist.  So all us have to be careful about the drugs we put in our bodies.  We can’t always trust what a doctor says, since he, himself, doesn’t have the truth about the drug he’s prescribing to you.

There’s also the vaccines we’re told to take for pneumonia, flu, etc.  I really don’t think most of these work.  My doctor tried to get me to take a  flu  shot, but I read the  ingredients that goes into making a flu shot, and  I refused to take the shot. I no longer take a vaccine for flu.  Most of the stuff that goes into a flu shot is harmful to your body. And I read somewhere that even doctors don’t think most of the vaccines do much good.  But I guess doctors have to push  us to take vaccines so they can make money off us, otherwise, most of them would not have  much of a practice.

Countdown:  118 blogs to write.  Only 57 days left in this year.  Will I accomplish my goal of writing 500 blogs for the year?

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