Gang Stalking – I just want this hell to end.

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Lately, I’ve thought that I have to do something about what is happening to me.  But what, I don’t know?  There seems to be no way out of this hell I’m experiencing.  This gang stalking has been with me now  going on four years.  And no matter which way I turn, there seems to be no answer.  There are a  few things I could do to end this, but it’s a coward’s way out.  I’ve never  been a coward, and I don’t intend to start being one.  I just wish I could find some help.  Some journalist who is willing to tell the stories of people who are suffering the same fate I am.

After four years of gang stalking, I’m tired.  I can barely get out of bed in the morning, but I force myself to get up, take a shower and get dressed. I have no bed, so I’ve been sleeping on the floor.  And sleeping on the has taken a toll on my body.  My body has scars from all the pesticide that’s sprayed on me.  My nails look dirty.  The pesticide gets inside my nails.   My nails don’t grow anymore.  My hair has become dry and brittle.  When I look at things, my eyes see double images.  The bottom of my feet have lots of scars from the pesticide.  I really don’t know how long I can continue with this horrible life I’m living.

The pesticide is bad enough, but I have to put with so much abuse from other people.  There’s not a moment I’m left alone.  There’s always someone trying to make my life miserable.  I don’t understand how people can be so evil.  No one can tell me that people are good, because I know they’re not.  If people were basically good, I wouldn’t be going through the hell I have to face every day.

I guess you can tell I’m not having a good day today.  Most times I’m okay, but there are days, I just want to die. I just want this hell to end.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to do anything.  I just had to let this out.  There’s no one I can talk with.  It’s a release when things build up inside of me too much.

(You see the photo with the backpack, this is the way the gang stalkers walk around.  They have backpacks on their backs and have a sprayer attached inside. This sprayer is large, but the ones the gang stalkers use are very small and cannot be seen by most people. And their backpacks are also smaller. )

P.S. They’ve erased my blog about five times already.  I don’t forget what I type, so I just retype. And I feel better already letting you know what’s going on.

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One of my favorite blogs is “Art of Traveling.”  It is written by Emile, who is from the Netherlands.  He travels with his wife and two children everywhere.  The last I heard they were  headed to New York.  I’m dying to know what they thought of New York.  Did they  like it?  Not like it?  Being from New York, I’m hoping he and his family enjoyed  New York.    Emile, I’m sure, will be his usual self and not say anything that will insult anybody.

I love the traveling part because I love to travel, but what I like most about Emile’s post is his humanity.  It comes through in his blog.  He takes his children traveling everywhere because he wants them to be world citizens.  He doesn’t want them to grow up being afraid of different races.  And he’s recently began to take his Spanish seriously because he wants to be able to communicate with people who speak Spanish and really know what  they’re about.  He not only wants his children to be world citizens, but be humane.  His children are lucky to have Emile as an example of what it is to be  a world citizen and humane.

If I’ve had a bad day and feel that humanity is not worth a damn, reading one of Emile’s blogs always set me on the right path of giving humanity another  chance.

His photos of the places he visits are usually outstanding.  He seems to be able to show exactly what being in the place he’s visiting feels like.  His photos usually leave me wanting to pack my bags and take off to the place he just visited.

So visit his blog (http://vandenboomen.WordPress.com)  and read  “Act of Traveling” for yourself.  I don’t think you’ll be disappointed.

I also love, love reading  “Freshly Pressed” by WordPress.  It is the page that features different bloggers with a variety of topics.  I guess you have to log in to http://WordPress.com to get it.

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