I’ve tried for about three hours to get onto my computer. The hackers removed the internet access, cookies, everything. I kept signing on and nothing would take. Over and over I had to sign in, sign out, try restore(which doesn’t work), and over and over I tried.
After almost three hours, I signed on. This usually happens to me, but not to such an extend. Sometimes, I just feel like saying “f–k it” and give up my blog. But this blog keeps me sane, and keeps me in touch with other targets. We can all get sympathy and advice from each other, because we’re definitely not going to get it from anyone else. All we get from the public is harassment and humiliation. We need each other. I need you more than I think you need me. Some of you are luckier than I am. You still have some family. I don’t.
Sometimes I think confronting my family was a mistake, but I can’t live with lies. I’ve always been honest to a fault, always been very upfront about everything. And knowing my family was trying to destroy me is not something I can live with. I wish I was that way sometimes. I make my life difficult by not living in a land of imaginary creatures. I’ve always lived in the real world, or anyway, the world I thought was real.
The world I thought was real, turned out not to be. The government I thought stood for honesty, turned out not to be. Family turned into people I didn’t recognize. I thought police were also honest, but no, no there’s no such thing as honest police officers. They’re all corrupt.
Everything I thought was real, is not real. I’ve been stripped naked of every belief I’ve ever had. I’ve tried to find out what it is I really believe, what is really real, not some imagined fantasy I have.
I’m sure all you targets can understand what I’m writing about, because all of you were stripped naked of all your beliefs, too. I’m sure, as I am, trying to find a new way of living, a new way of surviving, because that’s all we’re trying to do is survive. We’re not allowed to live normal lives. Every day we live is a new challenge. What new awful thing will come our way today? How will we handle it? Can we handle it? Will this be the day we fall apart?
But every day, every year we survive makes us just a little stronger. What once we thought we couldn’t handle, we do. And we gain courage from every bad thing that happens to us. We can look back and think about what we’ve survived so far, and this encourages us to go on another day, another year.
We targets are stronger than we think. Think back to all the horrible things we’ve survived, and give yourself credit for being strong.
We targets are strong and we are going to stick around to make sure the people who torture us get their punishment. Yesiree, targets, we’re sticking around to make sure they all go to jail and get their “just desserts”.
I look forward to the day when we targets can get together to celebrate our unshackling. And it will happen. Let the torturers live in their Fantasyland that they will never be discovered.
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