I was thinking about some of the bad things that have occurred in my life.
Of course, my mother’s and father’s deaths really hit me hard. My mother’s death especially, since she died after my father. After my mother died, I felt lost. I identified so closely with her. After she died, I had no connection to anyone and a darkness came over me.
And I remember the time I entered an elevator and a man pulled a gun on me. He called me a bitch and told me to hand over my wallet. Of course, I did what he said. A year later, the postoffice returned my wallet to me. The thief put the wallet into the postoffice box.
And then, there was the time I was crossing the street and a man ran me over with his car. He tried to beat the man next to him to the light. He knocked me down. I passed out and, when I awakened, I was on the street and I could feel the car tires rolling over my legs. I was afraid to move because I thought something really bad happened to my legs. But I finally got the courage to move my legs and they were okay. To this day, my right leg still hurts.
All of the above things are terrible things to happen to someone, but, nothing, nothing is as terrible as what’s happening to me now. In two of the above, I was lucky.
But nothing, nothing is bad as the gang stalking, except for the loss of my parents. If I ever thought in my wildest dream, I’ d have this happen to me, I’d definitely would have chosen a different route in my life. I think about all the choices I made. Why didn’t I go right instead of left? Why did I ever move to Las Vegas? Why didn’t I just stay in New York? Why didn’t I marry the man who asked me to marry him? I could have lived in Europe. Why did I move where I did? Why? Why? Why? My life would be so different.
Since my life has led me to where I am, why? Why am I here? Am I here to learn something? And if I’m to learn something, what it is that I’m supposed to learn? Is the rest of my life going to be miserable as it’s been? Am I never to have some joy in my life? Am I going to be alone for the rest of my life?
I guess I took the road less traveled and I’m paying for it. I remember seeing a video of Frank Sinatra singing “regrets, he had a few.” I wish I could say the same.
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I ask myself a lot of those questions too. Especially “Is it really worth the fight?” But I go on in miserable existance mainly to piss them off. I wish we could get a real life like other people have though.
Wouldn’t it be nice to have a real life? We can only hope it happens before we get sick and really old.
Is a default settlement a fine? If so, I bet not one TI got a penny of that money! I wonder who did. Probably the government gave it to themselves.
Where did you read this? I haven’t read anything about default settlement.
I hope so too. Hope is all we have to hold onto, it’s the only thing we really own, and I’m holding TIGHTLY!
That’s only thing we can do is keep holding on; we have no other choice. In some ways I’m feeling positive, though, I think we’re going to see the end of this.
I’m kind of thinking that too, now that we are seeing investigations into weather FC’s are of any use, etc. Til then, I’ll just keep signing petitions. Oh, how do you make it so people can join a page on FB? I couldn’t see anything.
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Are you writing about doing it on WordPress? If you are, go to “Settings,” hit sharing and there you’ll be told what to do. Or you can read the tutorial from WordPress. Hope this helps.
They mentioned default settlements on one of the links on stopogs’s comment… Thanks for the blog advice.
I’ve never heard the term default settlements before. I’ll have to go to stopog’s blog and check it out. Thanks.
It was default something. I was sure it was settlements. I’ve never heard of anything like that either til I saw that.
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I found these links very interesting. Thanks